This time last year, I was having the hardest time with making the transition into college soccer, more broadly college life as a whole. Now I’m back to that same exact time a year later where the transition has already been made. Summer was long and short at the same time. I feel like it flew by, but at the same time, I’ve been home for over 3 months. The carelessness of summer is coming to a close. The semester doesn’t start until the 31st of August, but preseason practices unofficially start tomorrow. I can’t wait to play soccer everyday again. I’m definitely not looking forward to classes starting. All they do is add stress to my life and remind me that I have no idea what I want to do with my life after college.
I always get so many ideas or thoughts I guess when I’m doing other things. Then, the second I get my laptop open, my brain goes from being everywhere at once to being in a more relaxed place. Today was kind of a reflective day, on the summer and on the place I’m in as a whole with college and soccer and every other aspect of my life. I’m still so single and it blows. Girls anymore are so backwards, and I’m sure guys are too. I don’t know. It just seems so hard to meet people anymore without some sort of social media being involved. For example, there’s this girl that I kinda sorta grew up with. She’s my step grandfathers niece’s daughter or something like that. Long story short, we’re not related. That seems to be the first thing people hear when I explain it. Anyway so we have only seen each other like 3-4 times in the past 5 years. We just so happen to go to the same college. So throughout the year, we snap chatted and texted and what not and I always asked to see if she wanted to hang out. She was always down, but always said she busy and would let me know. We never hung out. Then, the families got together on the 4th of July. This was the first time we’d seen each other in a long time. We were there for hours and we barely spoke. I started conversation with her a few times but it didn’t really go anywhere. After so long, I started thinking that I should just cross this one off the list. We left and on the way home, she snap chatted me saying, “we finally got to hang for a little.” Are you kidding? Naturally, i snap chatted back with “yeah sort of” and after that we started texting and snap chatting again for about 2 weeks. Same thing. We talked about hanging out, she said she wanted to, and it still hasn’t happened yet. But she will still snap chat me every so many days. This is so backwards. I’ve got zero interest in getting to know people through texting or snap chatting. That is so ridiculous. But this seems to be the way things are now. You can try to fight it, or go with the flow and neither seem to work.
Exulansis 